"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star." - Nietzsche
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
I finally saw that little light. For my entire life, I thought that this little light was something called resilience but oh how was I wrong. What I didn't understand for all of those years what that the light I could see was called joy. Joy was present in this horrifying moment. How could that be? How could something like joy exist in something so covered in black.
I can recollect how it felt in that moment. Everything was totally black. The darkest black you could even imagine. If you have ever seen a black table that has been lacquered thousands of times, the depths appear never-ending. This situation and time in my life was this similar type of black and it was as thick is molasses. It was horrifying.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
It's complicated, the idea of returning back to this place. There are so many things that are buried there that I'd rather not go back and explore. But I know that this is the place that I need to explore. This is the place that I need to discover because there are many gifts of learning there. It's very easy to be scared of this place and to wonder why you would ever want to go back, but that's the place where the magic is.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
I'm bringing my light.
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
I finally saw that little light. For my entire life, I thought that this little light was something called resilience but oh how was I wrong. What I didn't understand for all of those years what that the light I could see was called joy. Joy was present in this horrifying moment. How could that be? How could something like joy exist in something so covered in black.
I can recollect how it felt in that moment. Everything was totally black. The darkest black you could even imagine. If you have ever seen a black table that has been lacquered thousands of times, the depths appear never-ending. This situation and time in my life was this similar type of black and it was as thick is molasses. It was horrifying.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
It's complicated, the idea of returning back to this place. There are so many things that are buried there that I'd rather not go back and explore. But I know that this is the place that I need to explore. This is the place that I need to discover because there are many gifts of learning there. It's very easy to be scared of this place and to wonder why you would ever want to go back, but that's the place where the magic is.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
I'm bringing my light.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is a professional life coach at AYKME Life Coaching and writes daily articles on the journey of life at The Words Of Encouragement Dive into these Letting Go Quotes for more inspiration in letting go and healing the past.
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